Rants~ literally

Alright, my mind goes berserk that I'm strolling on my draft folder. Read all of them and found this one. Another random rants tbh, well whatever *decided to post with a closing sentence.

Here, sitting on a chair in front of the house, my father. You know it's such a happiness to hear his smile. Just some weeks ago I couldn't even shifted my mind from him. I wanted to help, I wanted to do something, I didn't want to disappoint him. But the more I think, the more I miss the simplest detail. That's what make him disappointed. And I did.

That was when A came, I heard his smile, literally for the fist time in a while, as if he forgot the pain he had to endure. Envious. That's the feeling I held back then. I often thought that it would be different if I was born as a boy. We had quarrels, countless already. But I simply love him and helpless.

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Never really care what people say. I can say that I'm letting people see me as a bad example and my sister as a good one. I don't care. What matter to me is that she knows me, much better. No need to care about someone else opinion. I don't have to act to prove them wrong/right. Yeah, she's the best.

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Spoiled. I don't have particular passion to begin with. My mother must be having a reservoir of patience to face such daughter. Never know what to do (even to eat), skip classes, slack off, so on. What am I again? My mother ... she's everything I could ever ask for.

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Years passed, they come back to me. All of them. "Stupid girl, you never learn!!" They said.